I was tidying up (strange too) today and came across the Mother's Day cards that Henry helped Billy pick out. It then dawned on me; hey these are for me, forever, not just one day. I know this sounds pretty strange as I have known Henry, in person, for 17 weeks and 4 days. It's just that it was such a long road to get here that sometimes I feel like I'm taking care of someone else's child. It is so amazing that despite all the sadness throughout our IVF journey (a friend would tell me, "...it's a marathon, Stacy, not a race") , we ended up with such a happy, beautiful son and it's difficult to even remember those "dark days". We are so blessed and I think that the timing couldn't be better.
There are so many times that I look at Henry and think, oh, could I just capture that smile, look, gesture? Will I be able to remember everything? Is there any way to describe how I feel to anyone? I feel like this is so unique even though I know it is not. So I will list for you everything that I have fallen in love with over the past 4 months. Hopefully the moms reading this will remember with fondness. Feel free to add to the list!
I love when he brings his little fists up to his chin when he laughs, I love that toward the end of nursing him, he starts to smile, I love when he's just about to fall asleep, he gives a little chuckle, I love how intently he watches what's going on around him, I love that he recognizes Billy's voice and gets excited when he hears it, I love how he is so quiet when he first wakes up and takes forever to come to (so fun to watch), I love that he says "aahhhhh" now when I massage his feet, I love watching his little feet stick up out of his bassinet while I'm getting dressed (gosh that boy can do crunches!), I love hearing him try out his voice-at all decibel levels. I love that he'll let me dress him in anything (for now), I love that he doesn't mind wearing hats. I love that he belongs to Billy and me (for now).
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